BFN- Big Fat Negative
(BFN is a common acronym used in trying to get pregnant chat rooms etc... )
IUI #1 was a bust... statistically I knew it should be, but you always hold out hope. We were really praying for a Christmas miracle. I tried not going there in my head... trying not to imagine telling our families on as the best Christmas present ever. I didn't focus on it, but it was there in the back of my mind. So the day came to take the blood test. I didn't take a test at home, I was too nervous. I was out Christmas shopping at Nordstrom when the nurse called.... "Sorry Miss_ you are not pregnant". Yeah that will take away your Christmas Spirit. I cried a little softly then texted my husband. I didn't want him coming home thinking he was going to get great news and be disapointed. He was so sweet and comforting. Physically, mentally and emotionally I was wiped out.
We had already decided that due to the Christmas/ New Years break that we would take a break and start again in January. It was a good decision. Christmas was good. It wasn't particularly happy, but I was with those that I loved and that loved me and that is always good.
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