1st OB apointment!

I walked into my OB's office 2 years ago and I was a teary mess. I wasn't getting pregnant and I wanted answers.  She was nice and aggressive and started my testing and quickly got my referral to Dr. B my RE right away.  Two years of heartache, loss and lot's of tears came after that.

Fast forward to yesterday and she is congratulating me on the twins.  So surreal. It was a basic appointment.  Blood work, vitals check, lists of dos and donts and a pelvic exam.  I was a smidge disappointed I didn't get to see my babies but I wasn't expecting another sono since I had one last week.  I will also be seeing a  MFM doctor who will see me since I am high risk due to my age and twins.  I am glad as I will fully embrace the extra monitoring!  Lot's of doctors and tons of boring waiting rooms in my future!  I will take it!

8 weeks!

8 weeks today!  The furthest in pregnancy I have ever gotten!  Still early but I am learning to let go of fear and trying to enjoy this pregnancy. It is hard when you feel like crap but I am so grateful for each day.

We told our families over the weekend and there were many tears and smiles.  Our families have been so supportive as we have struggled and through our losses.  We are so blessed to have them.

We started telling our closest friends this week and it is scary because it is so early but since our families knew we couldn't take a chance and not tell them,  Our families have big mouths.  I am honestly not comfortable with lot's of people knowing, but it is what it is.

I have my first OB appointment tomorrow where I hope I gt to see the babies again.  The husband can't go and I don't feel comfortable with anyone else going with me to my first one.  I am nervous and ready to get it over with!


Symptoms: still have them all.  The zofran has taken the edge of my morning sickness but it is still with me pretty much all day.  The constant peeing is annoying and this morning the gas is well... in full effect and a bit embarassing!

Cravings:  not much.... chicken sandwiches from Chic-fil-a and Wendy's are tolerable.

Aversions:  meat in general...

Ultrasound results & 7 weeks 2 days

Yesterday afternoon was our first ultrasound.  The husband and I were so nervous.  My favorite technician was there.  She is always so nice and encouraging.  She wasted no time and suddenly the image popped up on the screen and it was clear as day....  2 babies with heartbeats.  I was so overwhelmed with relief and joy.  I will never forget that moment. I just kept looking up at my husband seeing his face light up in awe.  I did have a panic moment when she started double checking that there wasn't a third in there. But no... two babies!  They are measuring perfectly on track and have perfect fast little heartbeats. 

After we saw the babies we got more instructions from my nurse about my meds etc..  Then we got to meet with Dr. B who was jovial but scattered.  He gave me some stronger meds for my morning sickness which I am grateful for!

We are now going to tell our families.  We are trying to get them all together but they aren't cooperating so we are going to probably tell them as we see them all. Not how I pictured it but oh well!


Symptoms:  Still every symptom in the book!  Morning sickness is bad so I am going to start taking my zofran more regularly.  Constipation is no fun so gotta work on that!

Aversions: everything!

Cravings:  Frozen yogurt

6 weeks 6 days

I can't believe I will be 7 weeks tomorrow. Time has crawled at a painful level on one hand and flown by on another.  Ultrasound is Wednesday and I am nervous. Nervous they won't find a heartbeat. Nervous something is wrong.   I am sure non- If brained women also have these fears, but I laid on that table before and had the ultrasound and the quiet whisper of the technician saying " I am so sorry- there isn't a baby".  That was a real experience and I think I have some legit PTSD about it. Even thinking about it makes me shudder.  I am trying to stay positive.  I can't wait to find out if we have one or two in there. I really don't know!


Cravings:  Not many these days but last night about 9pm I wanted Chinese food really bad.

Aversions:  Pretty much thinking about any food makes me want to barf.

Symptoms: All day morning sickness. ( I barfed in the bathroom after lunch today- fun fun).  Frequent urination (fun, fun), Gas ( my lucky husband)  Occasional heartburn, bloating , exhaustion, sore boobs.   Also I am apparently very irritable according to my family ( who doesn't know!)

If all goes well with our sonogram on Wednesday we will start telling our family and very close friends.

6 weeks 1day

Still waiting on the sonogram... one week from today!

I feel...pregnant.

Keeping this secret is getting harder every day.  Nausea, bloating, breaking out, exhaustion, sore boobs, moody, spidey smell abilities and the frequent urination is def there!

Cravings:  not much... nothing sounds good.  I gave in to one chili cheese burrito craving last night.  It could have been the worst decision ever but it actually made me feel better.

5wks 3days

Waiting.

My first ultrasound will be on 6/18.  Ugh.  So long to wait.  I will technically be 7weeks 1 day then so atleast we don't have to worry about it being too early to see a heartbeat.  Of course there are PLENTY of other things to worry about.  While I have been pretty good at letting the fear not rule my life right now it creeps in. Last night I had a dream I was bleeding.  It was scary.  I woke up and no blood but it shook me up pretty bad.

Symptoms: Nausea ( mostly in the afternoons), some gas, very sore boobs and new this week is heartburn and exhaustion.  I try not to complain about the symptoms as if I didn't have any surely I would be freaking out about that!

Cravings:  Not craving sour as much as before... I have really been wanting a chili cheese dog REALLY bad but have not given in to it. (yet)

Aversions: honestly nothing sounds good to me but I can tolerate most things.

People who know I am pregnant: My husband, my best friend.  My husband doesn't know I told her, he would be PISSED.  She point blank asked me and I didn't lie.  She won't tell a soul.  I think my mother is highly suspicious. 

4wks5days

I forgot to post my fist beta number on Friday afternoon... it was 641!  That is the highest beta I have ever had!

This weekend was crazy busy and my nausea moved up a notch.  Sunday I had to lie down and sleep it off!  I am going to try some tricks to keep it manageable.  Small meals etc...  My nausea usually starts before lunch and then goes through early evening.  Trying not to complain.


I will get 2nd beta number this afternoon!  Please double!!!!!

UPDATE:
Beta is 2166!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!