Charting and Temping

I am back to charting and temping my cycles.  I don't mind it but it can drive me batty.  This was my first cycle since the loss and so I knew it would be wonky.  My usual Ovulation is CD12.  I was an idiot and thought it might just be the same this month.  WRONG.  CD20!!  That is so crazy.  Just glad my body did something even if it was late to the party!  So glad I did chart/temp because I would have been frustrated with a late period and a BFN. Now I wait. 

August

I hate the Month of August. It is the worst month of the year in my opinion ( although July this year took the cake!). It is freakin miserable.  Nothing to do, nothing to look forward to. No Holiday.  Just back sweat and boredom.  This month however hasn't been too terrible.  Still healing of course.  Got to go on vacation and the weather has actually been pretty great. ( Atleast for this week).

Was hoping that my cycle would go back to normal and I would freakin ovulate but that doesn't seem to be happening.  I started temping/charting and it is a mess.  Now I have a new thermometer and I changed time zones and climates during the most vital part so it is possible I ovulated but not by the looks of it. So frustrating.  I have my yearly OBGYN appointment tomorrow.  Hopefully she will have some input/advice for me.

Just when I think

Just when I think I am moving on from the miscarriage something happens to pull me back into the grief and pain.

This week I have seen two pregnancy announcements on facebook.  Those are hard in general but this week it stabbed me in the heart because I realized these ladies have the same due date time frame as I would have.

I haven't cried this much in weeks.