Heard the babies heartbeats this afternoon. Made me melt. The nurse found them super fast. Baby A cooperated nicely.... Baby B was wiggling around a bit but found him super fast.
Can't wait to see them on the sonogram next week!!
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Friday, August 15, 2014
Pregnancy is not glamorous
So one thing I have learned about pregnancy in general is that it is pretty much the most unglamorous thing in the world. The ads with pregnant women in them are about as realistic as the Victoria's Secret models. Beautiful well put together soon to be mama's with perfect hair and skin glowing looking down while holding her perfect baby bump. Reality is a real pregnant woman is nothing like this woman.
Real pregnant women... As I have observed and now experienced
1. Have dark circles under their eyes because they are so tired
2. Have pale dull skin because they can't stand to be outside in the heat and they have been throwing up so much they look a bit "sickly".
3. If there is any glow it is really just sweat because you feel so freakin hot all the time due to the hormones.
4. Discuss poop ( or the inability to poop) with their husbands and best friends. Ok maybe I am the only one that does that, but I doubt it.
5. Don't have the perfect cute bump. My twin bump just looks like I am fatter. I know it will get more bumpish but honestly it isn't cute.
6. Confused about what to wear... too big for regular clothes and not big enough for maternity wear makes for interesting and sad outfit choices.
7. Swell. Cankles anyone. yep.
8. Grunt. Yeah getting up and down I have started grunting. I sound like an old man getting out of bed. I am sure my husband finds it so sexy.
9. snore. congestion due to pregnancy hormones is common and now I snore. again...not sexy.
10. Pee when you laugh... noone freakin tells you this happens!
11. Gas.
12. Bitchy. It's true. I try to keep my moods reasonable but there are days when it just doesn't work.
13. Pregnancy brain. I will have to share in a later post about all the dumb ass things I have done recently.
oh I am sure I can thing of about 10 more things.. but I am tired and suddenly craving ice gold milk....
Real pregnant women... As I have observed and now experienced
1. Have dark circles under their eyes because they are so tired
2. Have pale dull skin because they can't stand to be outside in the heat and they have been throwing up so much they look a bit "sickly".
3. If there is any glow it is really just sweat because you feel so freakin hot all the time due to the hormones.
4. Discuss poop ( or the inability to poop) with their husbands and best friends. Ok maybe I am the only one that does that, but I doubt it.
5. Don't have the perfect cute bump. My twin bump just looks like I am fatter. I know it will get more bumpish but honestly it isn't cute.
6. Confused about what to wear... too big for regular clothes and not big enough for maternity wear makes for interesting and sad outfit choices.
7. Swell. Cankles anyone. yep.
8. Grunt. Yeah getting up and down I have started grunting. I sound like an old man getting out of bed. I am sure my husband finds it so sexy.
9. snore. congestion due to pregnancy hormones is common and now I snore. again...not sexy.
10. Pee when you laugh... noone freakin tells you this happens!
11. Gas.
12. Bitchy. It's true. I try to keep my moods reasonable but there are days when it just doesn't work.
13. Pregnancy brain. I will have to share in a later post about all the dumb ass things I have done recently.
oh I am sure I can thing of about 10 more things.. but I am tired and suddenly craving ice gold milk....
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
15 weeks 1 day
Hit 15 weeks yesterday...babies are growing fast and I am certainly growing. Over the past couple of weeks I am feeling and looking more pregnant. I am getting slower and I can't walk or stand for long periods of time without some aches and pains. Sleeping comfortably can be challenging but I figured out this system with an extra pillow and a body pillow that is working for me for now.
We still haven't prepared much for the babies.... We did settle on the cribs so I guess that is significant. We REALLY need to work on names for the babies. Our list is still super long and we haven't even talked about it in about two weeks. We will start our registry in a few weeks and that completely overwhelms me!
I see my OB next week! Can't wait to hear the babies. I try not to worry about them but let's be honest... I totally worry.
We still haven't prepared much for the babies.... We did settle on the cribs so I guess that is significant. We REALLY need to work on names for the babies. Our list is still super long and we haven't even talked about it in about two weeks. We will start our registry in a few weeks and that completely overwhelms me!
I see my OB next week! Can't wait to hear the babies. I try not to worry about them but let's be honest... I totally worry.
Thursday, August 7, 2014
Reactions to twin pregnancy
I knew that when we announced we were having twins we would get hit with all sorts of comments and questions. The husband and I read several blog posts about it and tried to prepare our answers ahead of time. We both have different approaches of course as I have no problem telling someone off and my husband is just too nice and would never offend anyone even if they offended him or were out of line. It is both admirable and frustrating that he is so freaking nice sometimes. Anyways so even though only about 25% off our families, friends, and coworkers know about the twins we have already started receiving stupid twin comments and questions.
1. Do twins run in your family? This is the one we get the most. Almost every single person outside of our family and closest friends has asked us this. This is just a sneaky way of asking "Did you do fertility treatments?" We answer "yes" well because technically they do on both sides. Sure it's a half truth. Sometimes they push the issue and ask which specific relatives are twins. I answer tell them the two family members on my moms side and try to change the subject.
2. Are they Natural? This has only been blatantly asked one time. I couldn't even believe question came out of this ladies mouth much less she asked me in front of about 12 other people. If there hadn't been witnesses I would have killed her. I still get livid every time I think about it. I am sure the look on my face was one of shock but I quickly responded "Yes they were made by God". I have read some good responses online so if I am ever asked again I might try one of them like "no they are actually made of latex how cool is that!"
3. Are you shocked? This is just another sneaky way of asking if this was planned by using fertility treatments. My response is "yes! I am still trying to wrap my head around it!" This is the truth. I am still shocked everyday that I am pregnant at all much less with twins!
4. So after this you'll be done! This is usually in the form of a statement rather than a question. This one really surprised me because I have heard it a lot which I wasn't expecting. It is usually said to me in a friendly manner and honestly I just ignore it. It is weird that people are thinking about it though. We aren't done after twins, but not worth a discussion!
5. Do you know the sexes? Ok not such a silly question. When I say we don't know yet ( a lie but we aren't revealing this yet) but that they are fraternal twins they get a weird look on their face and then start asking the stupid questions. Like "Fraternal... which ones are those?" " How do you know?" someone even told me she said that the doctor must be wrong because she had a dream I had identical girls. I have tried to explain the whole they are in separate sacks/placentas biological part and they get a glazed over look and they sometimes I laugh and tell them to google it. sigh.
6. Did you use fertility drugs? This has only been asked once. A coworker who is an older lady that I actually do like. I lied. It is none of her business. You ask an inappropriate question you don't deserve the truth. Now if a close friend or someone who was struggling asked me this question I would tell them we had help.
So I am sure this is the tip of the iceberg and twin moms out there have heard it all. I know the questions won't die down for a long time if ever so I will just have to get use to it.
1. Do twins run in your family? This is the one we get the most. Almost every single person outside of our family and closest friends has asked us this. This is just a sneaky way of asking "Did you do fertility treatments?" We answer "yes" well because technically they do on both sides. Sure it's a half truth. Sometimes they push the issue and ask which specific relatives are twins. I answer tell them the two family members on my moms side and try to change the subject.
2. Are they Natural? This has only been blatantly asked one time. I couldn't even believe question came out of this ladies mouth much less she asked me in front of about 12 other people. If there hadn't been witnesses I would have killed her. I still get livid every time I think about it. I am sure the look on my face was one of shock but I quickly responded "Yes they were made by God". I have read some good responses online so if I am ever asked again I might try one of them like "no they are actually made of latex how cool is that!"
3. Are you shocked? This is just another sneaky way of asking if this was planned by using fertility treatments. My response is "yes! I am still trying to wrap my head around it!" This is the truth. I am still shocked everyday that I am pregnant at all much less with twins!
4. So after this you'll be done! This is usually in the form of a statement rather than a question. This one really surprised me because I have heard it a lot which I wasn't expecting. It is usually said to me in a friendly manner and honestly I just ignore it. It is weird that people are thinking about it though. We aren't done after twins, but not worth a discussion!
5. Do you know the sexes? Ok not such a silly question. When I say we don't know yet ( a lie but we aren't revealing this yet) but that they are fraternal twins they get a weird look on their face and then start asking the stupid questions. Like "Fraternal... which ones are those?" " How do you know?" someone even told me she said that the doctor must be wrong because she had a dream I had identical girls. I have tried to explain the whole they are in separate sacks/placentas biological part and they get a glazed over look and they sometimes I laugh and tell them to google it. sigh.
6. Did you use fertility drugs? This has only been asked once. A coworker who is an older lady that I actually do like. I lied. It is none of her business. You ask an inappropriate question you don't deserve the truth. Now if a close friend or someone who was struggling asked me this question I would tell them we had help.
So I am sure this is the tip of the iceberg and twin moms out there have heard it all. I know the questions won't die down for a long time if ever so I will just have to get use to it.
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
14 weeks 1 day
Waiting to see my babies again is hard.... two more weeks! My bump is getting bigger and while I can't feel them kicking yet I do have this weird sensation sometimes when I am laying down at night. Sometimes when I shift from one side to another I feel a "wave" of movement. Now it could just be my organs sloshing around in there. But it almost feels like a ball inside me... I am wondering if it is the babies shifting because I am... who knows!
Morning sickness is still kicking my tail! My exhaustion at work is better, but after work I literally am done for the night. I feel bad that I haven't been able to keep up with friends. Driving across town for a late dinner just isn't gonna happen right now. My married friends with kids understand but a couple of my single friends seem annoyed.
The husband and I are still working on names... we still have a pretty long list of names we like so I think it will take a while. I did start a master spreadsheet of all the items we need to register for. We are researching right now. I just don't want to get to the stores to register and get overwhelmed and register for too much or not enough. I have been reading a lot of suggested registry checklists for twins and I also plan on meeting with a couple of ladies I know with small twins to get their opinions and input on my list.
Morning sickness is still kicking my tail! My exhaustion at work is better, but after work I literally am done for the night. I feel bad that I haven't been able to keep up with friends. Driving across town for a late dinner just isn't gonna happen right now. My married friends with kids understand but a couple of my single friends seem annoyed.
The husband and I are still working on names... we still have a pretty long list of names we like so I think it will take a while. I did start a master spreadsheet of all the items we need to register for. We are researching right now. I just don't want to get to the stores to register and get overwhelmed and register for too much or not enough. I have been reading a lot of suggested registry checklists for twins and I also plan on meeting with a couple of ladies I know with small twins to get their opinions and input on my list.
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
13 weeks 1 day
My morning sickness has come back with a vengeance. ugh. It isn't consistent but yesterday was pretty awful. Time to break out the zofran again!
I think I am looking more pregnant... I am chubby so I don't have the cute little bump that the skinny girls get but I have something going on! I have only gained 1 pound so I am happy with that. I know it will be important to start packing on some weight with the twins but OB wants me to not gain more than 30. It is easy not to gain right now as nothing sounds good to eat... I put on weight super easy so not that worried about it yet.
We have planned to announce the sexes of our babies on Labor Day at my families annual cookout. All my cousins from out of town will be in so it makes sense to do it with everyone there. I can't wait!! The secret is starting to get harder and harder to keep!
I think I am looking more pregnant... I am chubby so I don't have the cute little bump that the skinny girls get but I have something going on! I have only gained 1 pound so I am happy with that. I know it will be important to start packing on some weight with the twins but OB wants me to not gain more than 30. It is easy not to gain right now as nothing sounds good to eat... I put on weight super easy so not that worried about it yet.
We have planned to announce the sexes of our babies on Labor Day at my families annual cookout. All my cousins from out of town will be in so it makes sense to do it with everyone there. I can't wait!! The secret is starting to get harder and harder to keep!
Friday, July 25, 2014
12 weeks 3 days
First tri is almost in the rear view mirror. Every book and website has a different opinion about when second tri starts. I am considering 12 weeks second tri as I am not likely to carry the twins to 37 weeks. I hope I can though! That is what is utmost on my mind and heart. I want to carry these babies as long as possible and get them here safe and healthy. Most of my fears these days revolve around preterm labor. While ecstatic that our first tri screen and NT tests all came back fantastic, I am still scared. I am really trying not to dwell on the fears but I have heard several sad stories lately with both twins and singletons that are heavy on my mind. I have to just stay focused on the positives and truths.
1. Right now everything is going as it should
2. I have excellent medical care and I am monitored frequently
3. I have a flexible job in case I need to slow down, bed rest etc...
4. Statistically I have a very good chance of bringing home these babies
5. God is in control ( the most important thing to remember)
I feel so much more connected to the babies this week after seeing/hearing them. I can't feel them yet although their presence in my life is growing! I can't roll over in bed on my stomach without feeling my "bump" etc... This pregnancy is progressing fast! So falling in love with them more and more also makes me realize if I were to lose them how devastating that would be.
Next ultrasound isn't for a month. Gonna be a long time to wait but I am going to do my best to stay positive and enjoy these little miracles inside of me!
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
First Tri Screening!
I had my first tri screening yesterday and I was so
nervous! I am seeing an MFM since I am having twins and he was super
nice and he was very good to explain and show us everything! My baby
boys were so big! I couldn't believe it! Both are doing perfect and we
didn't have any markers for any issues or chromosome abnormalities. I
FINALLY got to hear their heartbeats and I was sobbing so hard in joy!
Sweetest sound! Went to OB this morning for my check up there and
everything was good!
I can't wait until I am officially out of the first tri in a little over a week!
I can't wait until I am officially out of the first tri in a little over a week!
Monday, July 21, 2014
Tomorrow!
Tomorrow I have my first tri screening with my MFM.
Scared but so ready to see my babies!!!
Scared but so ready to see my babies!!!
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Mini Meltdown
Let me preface this post that I am EXHAUSTED! I haven't slept well in days, jet lag is STILL a factor, I have a cold, and oh yeah I am growing TWO babies inside of me.
I am so grateful for this pregnancy. I have dreamed about this time for years and I have prayed for this. I told myself I wouldn't be one of those women who complained about pregnancy. But it is hard. I just feel so bad physically and so exhausted. I know this is all minor and this is what I not only signed up for but wanted and pleaded for. So I feel like a total bitch and hypocrite for not "enjoying" pregnancy. Pregnancy is scary. Twin pregnancy is crazy. My body is going through crazy amount of changes which is yes a miracle and amazing. But also scary. Every pull or twinge is scary. I still check for blood every time I go to the bathroom. I am petrified that something is wrong. I am so anxious about my scan next week. I am trying to remain positive but I think the exhaustion is just wearing me down.
Last night the husband and I had our first fight since I got pregnant. We don't fight often. I think our last fight was in like February. Anyways I was tired and he was a jerk. We talked it through but it was a reminder to me how he really doesn't get it. I mean he is a guy he really can't. Sigh.
ok enough venting.
I am so grateful for this pregnancy. I have dreamed about this time for years and I have prayed for this. I told myself I wouldn't be one of those women who complained about pregnancy. But it is hard. I just feel so bad physically and so exhausted. I know this is all minor and this is what I not only signed up for but wanted and pleaded for. So I feel like a total bitch and hypocrite for not "enjoying" pregnancy. Pregnancy is scary. Twin pregnancy is crazy. My body is going through crazy amount of changes which is yes a miracle and amazing. But also scary. Every pull or twinge is scary. I still check for blood every time I go to the bathroom. I am petrified that something is wrong. I am so anxious about my scan next week. I am trying to remain positive but I think the exhaustion is just wearing me down.
Last night the husband and I had our first fight since I got pregnant. We don't fight often. I think our last fight was in like February. Anyways I was tired and he was a jerk. We talked it through but it was a reminder to me how he really doesn't get it. I mean he is a guy he really can't. Sigh.
ok enough venting.
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
11 weeks
Babies are the size of a lime. A freaking lime!
I am exhausted! A combination of growing babies, jet lag and a cold have me WIPED OUT! I just got back from vacation so I can't miss work. So I am just trying to get through the day then do nothing at night. This is hard the husband but I think yesterday he realized I wasn't being dramatic. I might have also worn myself out from the weekend. We looked did some cleaning, went to the mall and even a couple of baby stores looking at furniture. I found the cribs I want! We won't buy them until after 20 weeks but I feel better knowing what I want. Now I just need to pick a color for the nursery ( I have it narrowed down) and get that done here in the next few weeks. So much to do!
My First trimester screening with my MFM is next week. I am so anxious as I haven't had a sono in over a month. While I haven't had any bleeding etc the IF brain isn't calm having not seen the babies in so long. My hormones are looking good as I am still getting weekly checks with my RE for that. He is starting to ween me off the estrogen and PIO injections. Probably 2 weeks tops on those!
Cravings: Not much still. Which is why I haven't gained any weight ( yay!) But this morning I had to have a McDonalds sausage biscuit. Cravings are still rare.
Aversions: Still meat in general. Nothing sounds good but things are usually tolerable.
I am exhausted! A combination of growing babies, jet lag and a cold have me WIPED OUT! I just got back from vacation so I can't miss work. So I am just trying to get through the day then do nothing at night. This is hard the husband but I think yesterday he realized I wasn't being dramatic. I might have also worn myself out from the weekend. We looked did some cleaning, went to the mall and even a couple of baby stores looking at furniture. I found the cribs I want! We won't buy them until after 20 weeks but I feel better knowing what I want. Now I just need to pick a color for the nursery ( I have it narrowed down) and get that done here in the next few weeks. So much to do!
My First trimester screening with my MFM is next week. I am so anxious as I haven't had a sono in over a month. While I haven't had any bleeding etc the IF brain isn't calm having not seen the babies in so long. My hormones are looking good as I am still getting weekly checks with my RE for that. He is starting to ween me off the estrogen and PIO injections. Probably 2 weeks tops on those!
Cravings: Not much still. Which is why I haven't gained any weight ( yay!) But this morning I had to have a McDonalds sausage biscuit. Cravings are still rare.
Aversions: Still meat in general. Nothing sounds good but things are usually tolerable.
Friday, July 11, 2014
10 weeks 3 days
Vaction was...exhausting. Traveling overseas while pregnant with twins was harder than I thought it would be. It really wiped me out. But I am grateful that I got to see some more of Europe.
Before I left I had my OB appointment at 8 weeks and everything went well. I like my OB. She is professional but not stuffy and I feel like she listens and doesn't try to rush me. I do hate that you have to spend some much time in her waiting room though. I will also be seeing an MFM to monitor the twins and my first appointment with him is in a week and a half. I am so nervous. I haven't seen the babies in over a month. I am trying not to let my fears overwhelm me. I am doing a pretty decent job. I am still struggling with talking in certainties that I will get to keep the babies. I am scared to name them or post on social media anytime soon about them. I have picked up some sample colors to paint the nursery which is one step. I promised my husband we could discuss names after the next sonogram. I really don't want to post anything on social media until after we reveal the genders in 6 weeks. Everyone that is important to us already knows and everyone else can wait!
Cravings: Not too many cravings...ice cream is usually always sounds good. I had another craving for cripsy sesame chicken but I didn't give in. Chicfila is usually good with me.
Aversions: BBQ, meat in general, eggs etc... Sometimes just thinking about certain restaurants I use to love makes my stomach turn.
Symptoms: Nausea ( better but sometimes I still need the zofran) Heartburn, bloating, constipation, sore boobs, night sweats.
Before I left I had my OB appointment at 8 weeks and everything went well. I like my OB. She is professional but not stuffy and I feel like she listens and doesn't try to rush me. I do hate that you have to spend some much time in her waiting room though. I will also be seeing an MFM to monitor the twins and my first appointment with him is in a week and a half. I am so nervous. I haven't seen the babies in over a month. I am trying not to let my fears overwhelm me. I am doing a pretty decent job. I am still struggling with talking in certainties that I will get to keep the babies. I am scared to name them or post on social media anytime soon about them. I have picked up some sample colors to paint the nursery which is one step. I promised my husband we could discuss names after the next sonogram. I really don't want to post anything on social media until after we reveal the genders in 6 weeks. Everyone that is important to us already knows and everyone else can wait!
Cravings: Not too many cravings...ice cream is usually always sounds good. I had another craving for cripsy sesame chicken but I didn't give in. Chicfila is usually good with me.
Aversions: BBQ, meat in general, eggs etc... Sometimes just thinking about certain restaurants I use to love makes my stomach turn.
Symptoms: Nausea ( better but sometimes I still need the zofran) Heartburn, bloating, constipation, sore boobs, night sweats.
Thursday, June 26, 2014
1st OB apointment!
I walked into my OB's office 2 years ago and I was a teary mess. I wasn't getting pregnant and I wanted answers. She was nice and aggressive and started my testing and quickly got my referral to Dr. B my RE right away. Two years of heartache, loss and lot's of tears came after that.
Fast forward to yesterday and she is congratulating me on the twins. So surreal. It was a basic appointment. Blood work, vitals check, lists of dos and donts and a pelvic exam. I was a smidge disappointed I didn't get to see my babies but I wasn't expecting another sono since I had one last week. I will also be seeing a MFM doctor who will see me since I am high risk due to my age and twins. I am glad as I will fully embrace the extra monitoring! Lot's of doctors and tons of boring waiting rooms in my future! I will take it!
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
8 weeks!
8 weeks today! The furthest in pregnancy I have ever gotten! Still early but I am learning to let go of fear and trying to enjoy this pregnancy. It is hard when you feel like crap but I am so grateful for each day.
We told our families over the weekend and there were many tears and smiles. Our families have been so supportive as we have struggled and through our losses. We are so blessed to have them.
We started telling our closest friends this week and it is scary because it is so early but since our families knew we couldn't take a chance and not tell them, Our families have big mouths. I am honestly not comfortable with lot's of people knowing, but it is what it is.
I have my first OB appointment tomorrow where I hope I gt to see the babies again. The husband can't go and I don't feel comfortable with anyone else going with me to my first one. I am nervous and ready to get it over with!
Symptoms: still have them all. The zofran has taken the edge of my morning sickness but it is still with me pretty much all day. The constant peeing is annoying and this morning the gas is well... in full effect and a bit embarassing!
Cravings: not much.... chicken sandwiches from Chic-fil-a and Wendy's are tolerable.
Aversions: meat in general...
We told our families over the weekend and there were many tears and smiles. Our families have been so supportive as we have struggled and through our losses. We are so blessed to have them.
We started telling our closest friends this week and it is scary because it is so early but since our families knew we couldn't take a chance and not tell them, Our families have big mouths. I am honestly not comfortable with lot's of people knowing, but it is what it is.
I have my first OB appointment tomorrow where I hope I gt to see the babies again. The husband can't go and I don't feel comfortable with anyone else going with me to my first one. I am nervous and ready to get it over with!
Symptoms: still have them all. The zofran has taken the edge of my morning sickness but it is still with me pretty much all day. The constant peeing is annoying and this morning the gas is well... in full effect and a bit embarassing!
Cravings: not much.... chicken sandwiches from Chic-fil-a and Wendy's are tolerable.
Aversions: meat in general...
Thursday, June 19, 2014
Ultrasound results & 7 weeks 2 days
Yesterday afternoon was our first ultrasound. The husband and I were so nervous. My favorite technician was there. She is always so nice and encouraging. She wasted no time and suddenly the image popped up on the screen and it was clear as day.... 2 babies with heartbeats. I was so overwhelmed with relief and joy. I will never forget that moment. I just kept looking up at my husband seeing his face light up in awe. I did have a panic moment when she started double checking that there wasn't a third in there. But no... two babies! They are measuring perfectly on track and have perfect fast little heartbeats.
After we saw the babies we got more instructions from my nurse about my meds etc.. Then we got to meet with Dr. B who was jovial but scattered. He gave me some stronger meds for my morning sickness which I am grateful for!
We are now going to tell our families. We are trying to get them all together but they aren't cooperating so we are going to probably tell them as we see them all. Not how I pictured it but oh well!
Symptoms: Still every symptom in the book! Morning sickness is bad so I am going to start taking my zofran more regularly. Constipation is no fun so gotta work on that!
Aversions: everything!
Cravings: Frozen yogurt
After we saw the babies we got more instructions from my nurse about my meds etc.. Then we got to meet with Dr. B who was jovial but scattered. He gave me some stronger meds for my morning sickness which I am grateful for!
We are now going to tell our families. We are trying to get them all together but they aren't cooperating so we are going to probably tell them as we see them all. Not how I pictured it but oh well!
Symptoms: Still every symptom in the book! Morning sickness is bad so I am going to start taking my zofran more regularly. Constipation is no fun so gotta work on that!
Aversions: everything!
Cravings: Frozen yogurt
Monday, June 16, 2014
6 weeks 6 days
I can't believe I will be 7 weeks tomorrow. Time has crawled at a painful level on one hand and flown by on another. Ultrasound is Wednesday and I am nervous. Nervous they won't find a heartbeat. Nervous something is wrong. I am sure non- If brained women also have these fears, but I laid on that table before and had the ultrasound and the quiet whisper of the technician saying " I am so sorry- there isn't a baby". That was a real experience and I think I have some legit PTSD about it. Even thinking about it makes me shudder. I am trying to stay positive. I can't wait to find out if we have one or two in there. I really don't know!
Cravings: Not many these days but last night about 9pm I wanted Chinese food really bad.
Aversions: Pretty much thinking about any food makes me want to barf.
Symptoms: All day morning sickness. ( I barfed in the bathroom after lunch today- fun fun). Frequent urination (fun, fun), Gas ( my lucky husband) Occasional heartburn, bloating , exhaustion, sore boobs. Also I am apparently very irritable according to my family ( who doesn't know!)
If all goes well with our sonogram on Wednesday we will start telling our family and very close friends.
Cravings: Not many these days but last night about 9pm I wanted Chinese food really bad.
Aversions: Pretty much thinking about any food makes me want to barf.
Symptoms: All day morning sickness. ( I barfed in the bathroom after lunch today- fun fun). Frequent urination (fun, fun), Gas ( my lucky husband) Occasional heartburn, bloating , exhaustion, sore boobs. Also I am apparently very irritable according to my family ( who doesn't know!)
If all goes well with our sonogram on Wednesday we will start telling our family and very close friends.
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
6 weeks 1day
Still waiting on the sonogram... one week from today!
I feel...pregnant.
Keeping this secret is getting harder every day. Nausea, bloating, breaking out, exhaustion, sore boobs, moody, spidey smell abilities and the frequent urination is def there!
Cravings: not much... nothing sounds good. I gave in to one chili cheese burrito craving last night. It could have been the worst decision ever but it actually made me feel better.
I feel...pregnant.
Keeping this secret is getting harder every day. Nausea, bloating, breaking out, exhaustion, sore boobs, moody, spidey smell abilities and the frequent urination is def there!
Cravings: not much... nothing sounds good. I gave in to one chili cheese burrito craving last night. It could have been the worst decision ever but it actually made me feel better.
Friday, June 6, 2014
5wks 3days
Waiting.
My first ultrasound will be on 6/18. Ugh. So long to wait. I will technically be 7weeks 1 day then so atleast we don't have to worry about it being too early to see a heartbeat. Of course there are PLENTY of other things to worry about. While I have been pretty good at letting the fear not rule my life right now it creeps in. Last night I had a dream I was bleeding. It was scary. I woke up and no blood but it shook me up pretty bad.
Symptoms: Nausea ( mostly in the afternoons), some gas, very sore boobs and new this week is heartburn and exhaustion. I try not to complain about the symptoms as if I didn't have any surely I would be freaking out about that!
Cravings: Not craving sour as much as before... I have really been wanting a chili cheese dog REALLY bad but have not given in to it. (yet)
Aversions: honestly nothing sounds good to me but I can tolerate most things.
People who know I am pregnant: My husband, my best friend. My husband doesn't know I told her, he would be PISSED. She point blank asked me and I didn't lie. She won't tell a soul. I think my mother is highly suspicious.
My first ultrasound will be on 6/18. Ugh. So long to wait. I will technically be 7weeks 1 day then so atleast we don't have to worry about it being too early to see a heartbeat. Of course there are PLENTY of other things to worry about. While I have been pretty good at letting the fear not rule my life right now it creeps in. Last night I had a dream I was bleeding. It was scary. I woke up and no blood but it shook me up pretty bad.
Symptoms: Nausea ( mostly in the afternoons), some gas, very sore boobs and new this week is heartburn and exhaustion. I try not to complain about the symptoms as if I didn't have any surely I would be freaking out about that!
Cravings: Not craving sour as much as before... I have really been wanting a chili cheese dog REALLY bad but have not given in to it. (yet)
Aversions: honestly nothing sounds good to me but I can tolerate most things.
People who know I am pregnant: My husband, my best friend. My husband doesn't know I told her, he would be PISSED. She point blank asked me and I didn't lie. She won't tell a soul. I think my mother is highly suspicious.
Monday, June 2, 2014
4wks5days
I forgot to post my fist beta number on Friday afternoon... it was 641! That is the highest beta I have ever had!
This weekend was crazy busy and my nausea moved up a notch. Sunday I had to lie down and sleep it off! I am going to try some tricks to keep it manageable. Small meals etc... My nausea usually starts before lunch and then goes through early evening. Trying not to complain.
I will get 2nd beta number this afternoon! Please double!!!!!
UPDATE:
Beta is 2166!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This weekend was crazy busy and my nausea moved up a notch. Sunday I had to lie down and sleep it off! I am going to try some tricks to keep it manageable. Small meals etc... My nausea usually starts before lunch and then goes through early evening. Trying not to complain.
I will get 2nd beta number this afternoon! Please double!!!!!
UPDATE:
Beta is 2166!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, May 30, 2014
More waiting- 4weeks3days
Went in this morning for my first beta. I am 10dp6dt so hopefully I see a nice strong beta number. My tests are dark and pop up positive as soon as the urine runs across the panel. I am symptomatic etc. All great signs but until I get through betas, then ultrasounds, then see a heartbeat It is all up in the air and includes lot's and lot's of waiting!!
Today I am pregnant and 4weeks and 3 days.
Symptoms: Nipples are on fires, gas, occasional twinges in the ute, waves of nausea, thirsty, frequent urination.
Cravings: Sour/tart and tangy foods are what I crave and seem to taste the best. I had some really tart frozen yogurt last night and it was heaven in my mouth. Greasy foods such as pizza and burgers are not appealing.
I should get the call about my beta this afternoon.
Today I am pregnant and 4weeks and 3 days.
Symptoms: Nipples are on fires, gas, occasional twinges in the ute, waves of nausea, thirsty, frequent urination.
Cravings: Sour/tart and tangy foods are what I crave and seem to taste the best. I had some really tart frozen yogurt last night and it was heaven in my mouth. Greasy foods such as pizza and burgers are not appealing.
I should get the call about my beta this afternoon.
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