Mother's Day....
I thought with the impending transfer next week that somehow this day would be easier this year. Nope. Just as hard. I know people mean well but being wished a Happy Mother's Day is like someone poking you with a sharp medal object. All I can do is give a half smile and say thank you and try not to cry. What I really want to say is...." Yeah not so happy considering I am not a Mother and the only child I have ever had is not living." I don't say that, but part of me imagines the look on their face if I did. I am hurt by their comment but their comment is ignorant to me not spiteful so I don't want to hurt them back. They say "hurt people hurt people" and I don't want to be like that. So I am just trying to get through the day. I am trying to focus on just celebrating my mom. She is the best. Seriously luckiest daughter in the world. Trying to focus on how grateful I am to have her.
Lining check is Wednesday. I start taking 3 estrogen pills a day today. No major side effects other than my digestive system is a bit off. I should start the PIO injections on Wednesday. If everything goes well with my lining check I will get a transfer date. I am hoping it will be Monday, but it could be anytime next week.
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