Tomorrow is moving day. And we are officially homeless. I should be scared or anxious but really I am sort of numb. I know this is just a step in towards our future. We will find a new home when it is time. Moving in with my parents for a while will allow us to save a ton of money and put towards IVF or other procedures. It is just all part of this crazy journey. I am so blessed to have an amazing husband to share this with.
In other news I get all my genetics/immune testing back on Friday. I am very nervous for some reason. I mean the results are what they are. I am hoping/praying it gives us some answers to why I am having trouble getting and staying pregnant. If is something we can do something about than awesome. If it is something that we can't do anything about then at least we know and can move forward with other options. I guess I am scared we will get no answers and stay stuck in this fertility limbo land.
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Gypsies with a "Plan"
So next week we are officially gypsies! We move out and in with my parents until we can figure some things out. So many things to figure out! We are trying to plan but not over plan because there are just too many variables and well we know God laughs when we plan. So the non plan plan is as follows:
1. Move out and in with the parents for unspecific amount of time
2. Wait on my genetics testing to see what if anything shows up. I get my results next week.
3. Keep charting/temping, taking supplements. My cycle is finally getting back to normal.
4. Lose at least 15 more pounds before I see my RE in November.
5. Save as much money as possible so we can go straight to IVF if needed.
We of course are still praying that I get pregnant naturally again. We have some hope but are also realistic that it might not happen. We have been on this journey for almost 18months and we just want our take home baby. We are praying that God leads us and that we remain hopeful and patient with His perfect plan.
1. Move out and in with the parents for unspecific amount of time
2. Wait on my genetics testing to see what if anything shows up. I get my results next week.
3. Keep charting/temping, taking supplements. My cycle is finally getting back to normal.
4. Lose at least 15 more pounds before I see my RE in November.
5. Save as much money as possible so we can go straight to IVF if needed.
We of course are still praying that I get pregnant naturally again. We have some hope but are also realistic that it might not happen. We have been on this journey for almost 18months and we just want our take home baby. We are praying that God leads us and that we remain hopeful and patient with His perfect plan.
"Wait patiently for the Lord. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the Lord. "
Psalm 27:13-14
Friday, September 6, 2013
Moving and Moving forward is hard
Moving forward after losing the baby has been super hard. While excited to try again I am also so fearful of not being able to get pregnant again or losing another baby. My cycles are wonky and my hormones are out of control. Poor husband is dealing with it in his own way. It's weird I can talk about my loss with my friends and I am ok, but when I talk to my husband or mother about it all I can do is cry. So I sometimes just don't bring it up even if my mind is consumed with it.
Speaking of moving... we sold our house with plans to buy a bigger house. We made some good money on our sale and were super excited to look for our new place. I just didn't expect it to be so hard. The market is not good for buying... high prices and limited inventory. We found an amazing house WAY over our original budget. We can afford it but I don't have a peace about it at all. Using so much money for a house when we don't have kids to fill it is making me panic a bit. I am struggling with what we should do. We can stay with my parents as long as we need. My poor husband loves the house we found... I feel guilty that my feelings about it might come in the way of his dream. I am praying for some direction on what to do and praying that DH and I will BOTH have a peace about our decision to buy or wait.
Not feeling very hopeful today, but I know God has a plan for us.
Speaking of moving... we sold our house with plans to buy a bigger house. We made some good money on our sale and were super excited to look for our new place. I just didn't expect it to be so hard. The market is not good for buying... high prices and limited inventory. We found an amazing house WAY over our original budget. We can afford it but I don't have a peace about it at all. Using so much money for a house when we don't have kids to fill it is making me panic a bit. I am struggling with what we should do. We can stay with my parents as long as we need. My poor husband loves the house we found... I feel guilty that my feelings about it might come in the way of his dream. I am praying for some direction on what to do and praying that DH and I will BOTH have a peace about our decision to buy or wait.
Not feeling very hopeful today, but I know God has a plan for us.
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