Wednesday, August 20, 2014

16 weeks 1 day

Heard the babies heartbeats this afternoon.  Made me melt.   The nurse found them super fast.  Baby A cooperated nicely.... Baby B was wiggling around a bit but found him super fast. 


Can't wait to see them on the sonogram next week!!

Friday, August 15, 2014

Pregnancy is not glamorous

So one thing I have learned about pregnancy in general is that it is pretty much the most unglamorous thing in the world.  The ads with pregnant women in them are about as realistic as the Victoria's Secret models.  Beautiful well put together soon to be  mama's with perfect hair and skin glowing looking down while holding her perfect baby bump.    Reality is a real pregnant woman is nothing like this woman.

Real pregnant women... As I have observed and now experienced
1. Have dark circles under their eyes because they are so tired
2.  Have pale dull skin because they can't stand to be outside in the heat and they have been throwing up so much they look a bit "sickly". 
3. If there is any glow it is really just sweat because you feel so freakin hot all the time due to the hormones.
4.  Discuss poop ( or the inability to poop) with their husbands and best friends.  Ok maybe I am the only one that does that, but I doubt it.
5.  Don't have the perfect cute bump.  My twin bump just looks like I am fatter. I know it will get more bumpish but honestly it isn't cute.
6. Confused about what to wear... too big for regular clothes and not big enough for maternity wear makes for interesting and sad outfit choices.
7. Swell.  Cankles anyone. yep.
8. Grunt.  Yeah getting up and down I have started grunting.   I sound like an old man getting out of bed. I am sure my husband finds it so sexy.
9. snore. congestion due to pregnancy hormones is common and now I snore. again...not sexy.
10. Pee when you laugh... noone freakin tells you this happens!
11.  Gas.
12. Bitchy.  It's true. I try to keep my moods reasonable but there are days when it just doesn't work.
13. Pregnancy brain. I will have to share in a later post about all the dumb ass things I have done recently.

oh I am sure I can thing of about 10 more things.. but I am tired and suddenly craving ice gold milk....


Wednesday, August 13, 2014

15 weeks 1 day

Hit 15 weeks yesterday...babies are growing fast and I am certainly growing.  Over the past couple of weeks I am feeling and looking more pregnant.  I am getting slower and I can't walk or stand for long periods of time without some aches and pains.  Sleeping comfortably can be challenging but I figured out this system with an extra pillow and a body pillow that is working for me for now. 

We still haven't prepared much for the babies.... We did settle on the cribs so I guess that is significant.  We REALLY need to work on names for the babies. Our list is still super long and we haven't even talked about it in about two weeks.  We will start our registry in a few weeks and that completely overwhelms me!


I see my OB next week!  Can't wait to hear the babies.  I try not to worry about them but let's be honest... I totally worry.


Thursday, August 7, 2014

Reactions to twin pregnancy

I knew that when we announced we were having twins we would get hit with all sorts of comments and questions.  The husband and I read  several blog posts about it and tried to prepare our answers ahead of time.  We both have different approaches of course as I have no problem telling someone off and my husband is just too nice and would never offend anyone even if they offended him or were out of line.  It is both admirable and frustrating that he is so freaking nice sometimes.  Anyways so even though only about 25% off our families, friends, and coworkers know about the twins we have already started receiving stupid twin comments and questions.

1.  Do twins run in your family? This is the one we get the most.  Almost every single person outside of our family and closest friends has asked us this.  This is just a sneaky way of asking "Did you do fertility treatments?"  We answer "yes" well because technically they do on both sides.  Sure it's a half truth.  Sometimes they push the issue and ask which specific relatives are twins.  I answer tell them the two family members on my moms side and try to change the subject.

2. Are they Natural? This has only been blatantly asked one time.  I couldn't even believe question came out of this ladies mouth much less she asked me in front of about 12 other people.  If there hadn't been witnesses I would have killed her.  I still get livid every time I think about it.  I am sure the look on my face was one of shock but I quickly responded "Yes they were made by God".  I have read some good responses online so if I am ever asked again I might try one of them like "no they are actually made of latex how cool is that!" 

3. Are you shocked?  This is just another sneaky way of asking if this was planned by using fertility treatments. My response is "yes!  I am still trying to wrap my head around it!"  This is the truth.  I am still shocked everyday that I am pregnant at all much less with twins!

4. So after this you'll be done!  This is usually in the form of a statement rather than a question.  This one really surprised me because I have heard it a lot which I wasn't expecting. It is usually said to me in a friendly manner and honestly I just ignore it.  It is weird that people are thinking about it though.  We aren't done after twins, but not worth a discussion!

5. Do you know the sexes?  Ok not such a silly question.  When I say we don't know yet ( a lie but we aren't revealing this yet) but that they are fraternal twins they get a weird look on their face and then start asking the stupid questions.  Like "Fraternal... which ones are those?" " How do you know?"  someone even told me she said that the doctor must be wrong because she had a dream I had identical girls.  I have tried to explain the whole they are in separate sacks/placentas biological part and they get a glazed over look and they sometimes I laugh and tell them to google it. sigh.

6.  Did you use fertility drugs?  This has only been asked once.  A coworker who is an older lady that I actually do like.  I lied. It is none of her business.  You ask an inappropriate question you don't deserve the truth.  Now if a close friend or someone who was struggling asked me this question I would tell them we had help.

So  I am sure this is the tip of the iceberg and twin moms out there have heard it all.  I know the questions won't die down for a long time if ever so I will just have to get use to it.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

14 weeks 1 day

Waiting to see my babies again is hard.... two more weeks!  My bump is getting bigger and while I can't feel them kicking yet I do have this weird sensation sometimes when I am laying down at night.  Sometimes when I shift from one side to another I feel a "wave" of movement.  Now it could just be my organs sloshing around in there.  But it almost feels like a ball inside me... I am wondering if it is the babies shifting because I am... who knows!

Morning sickness is still kicking my tail! My exhaustion at work is better, but after work I literally am done for the night.   I feel bad that I haven't been able to keep up with friends.  Driving across town for a late dinner just isn't gonna happen right now.  My married friends with kids understand but a couple of my single friends seem annoyed. 

The husband and I are still working on names... we still have a pretty long list of names we like so I think it will take a while.  I did start a master spreadsheet of all the items we need to register for.  We are researching right now.  I just don't want to get to the stores to register and get overwhelmed and register for too much or not enough.  I have been reading a lot of suggested registry checklists for twins and I also plan on meeting with a couple of ladies I know with small twins to get their opinions and input on my list. 


Wednesday, July 30, 2014

13 weeks 1 day

My morning sickness has come back with a vengeance. ugh.   It isn't consistent but yesterday was pretty awful.  Time to break out the zofran again!

I think I am looking more pregnant... I am chubby so I don't have the cute little bump that the skinny girls get but I have something going on!  I have only gained 1 pound so I am happy with that.  I know it will be important to start packing on some weight with the twins but OB wants me to not gain more than 30.  It is easy not to gain right now as nothing sounds good to eat...  I put on weight super easy so not that worried about it yet. 

We have planned to announce the sexes of our babies on Labor Day at my families annual cookout.  All my cousins from out of town will be in so it makes sense to do it with everyone there.   I can't wait!!  The secret is starting to get harder and harder to keep!

Friday, July 25, 2014

12 weeks 3 days


First tri is almost in the rear view mirror.  Every book and website has a different opinion about when second tri starts.  I am considering 12 weeks second tri as I am not likely to carry the twins to 37 weeks.  I hope I can though!  That is what is utmost on my mind and heart.  I want to carry these babies as long as possible and get them here safe and healthy.  Most of my fears these days revolve around preterm labor.  While ecstatic that  our first tri screen and NT tests all came back fantastic, I am still scared.  I am really trying not to dwell on the fears but I have heard several sad stories lately with both twins and singletons that are heavy on my mind.  I have to just stay focused on the positives and truths.

1. Right now everything is going as it should
2.  I have excellent medical care and I am monitored frequently
3. I have a flexible job  in case I need to slow down, bed rest etc...
4. Statistically I have a very good chance of bringing home these babies
5.  God is in control ( the most important thing to remember)

I feel so much more connected to the babies this week after seeing/hearing them.  I can't feel them yet although their presence in my life is growing!  I can't roll over in bed on my stomach without feeling my "bump" etc... This pregnancy is progressing fast!  So falling in love with them more and more also makes me realize if I were to lose them how devastating that would be. 

Next ultrasound isn't for a month.  Gonna be a long time to wait but I am going to do my best to stay positive and enjoy these little miracles inside of me!